Get it Together Girl...

I'm 34 newly single and is still talking to my ex finance.  What is wrong with me... I need to move on.  No moving on with someone but just move on with my life.  My ex is 700 miles away so at least there is no way of having a 'hook up.' So being the OCD person I am I have set some new goals for myself.  They all include me being a great and successfully single women and none of them include an relationship.
 I really believe I'm afraid to fall in love.  My friend asked me is it better to lose love than to not loved at all.  I know on the movies they say lose love however I say... not loved at all!!! I mean it, love stinks.  The real true love hurts.  Why would someone want to go through that over and over again.  Not me.. I do not like to be hurt. But... There are so many good things about love.  Love has a touch, a smell, a look.  I glow when I am in love.  I'm so happy that it seems to good to be true. When I'm in love everything is positive or at least everything that comes out of my mouth.  Love does make me feel good...  So what does that mean for me?  Am I suppose to be alone cause I don't want to be in love?  I mean  I have my best buddy, my 3 year old shitu zu, but what about human companionship?  Wow, my head is spending.  I hope to work through all my thoughts on love and loving and being newly single after 8 years and lets not get on the whole baby question and childhood traumatic events, man o man... I will save that for next time. 
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10/10/10 ~ Starting Over Again

For the last two years I have dreamed about 10/10/10.  I knew it would be the beginning of a new life for me.  I thought it was going to be a day with me in a white dress standing next to a man that I would spend the rest of my life with.  Well I was right about one thing, I am beginning a new life...  and I want to share my journey with you all.  In the last 40 days I left my ex fiance after begin together for 8 years moved from Brooklyn, NY Indiana and stayed with a friend.  I now have an apartment and will start my new job in two weeks.  Starting over again... 10/10/10.

Stay tuned  for more updates and Take care of you...